50/50

I just finished watching 50/50 a while ago. The movie features Joseph Gordon Levitt and Seth Rogen. The story is about a young guy named Adam (played by Levitt) who is pretty much living a routine life just like everyone else and  suddenly gets diagnosed with cancer. As it is an unexpected event, he decides to live his life day by day, trying things he never did before and instead of succumbing to depression did whatever it took to fight his sickness to be able to live as normal as possible and hopefully get another shot at life.

While watching this movie I just thought how terrible it'd be to one day live like your usual self free from any deadly illnesses then the next day find yourself on the brink of death. For a lot of people who have never been diagnosed with a deadly sickness we'd probably never understand how hard it is. Maybe yes we do have a knowledge on how hard it is based on stories and facts but nothing compares to experience. I don't wish to suffer this kind of fate someday but pondering on how it's like to be that sick knowing that you won't be living long enough, for someone who's suffering from this fate I'm sure the first thing the person would think about is how he lived his life and what he could have done. Regrets.

In an ordinary day, when we know that we are healthy and in good condition to do what we need and are expected to do, we don't really allot even just a few moments to ponder about how precious life is. We just don't care. We believe that we just have to go with the daily flow and think about tomorrow next time. But no, it's not supposed to go that way. We're too busy earning money to spend on material things that would really mean nothing at all once something happens that would put our routine life into a halt such as suffering from an incurable disease as cancer. Does it really have to take a hard luck to make us realize what and how much we've been missing in life? Does it always have to be too late?

I feel really sad for the people who are suffering from this kind of fate and have no choice but to make the most out of their remaining days. Given their condition the only choice left for them is to live their life on urgency. They just have to resort to doing everything that they could have done before but they never did so when they were still perfectly in control in a short span of time. Now that they are weak and dying they finally realize that it's not so hard to do it after all. Back then they were just too lazy or busy thinking about the inconsequential things. Realizing that they were able to do so many things they once wanted to do when they were healthier all they can do is wish that they could have done it sooner. To be able to put everything on rush or cram all of the last minute plans in such a short span of time is something that I wouldn't want to happen to me when I have the whole lot of time to cherish every moment of doing the things I want to do. That's why I believe in the idea that sometimes we have to drop everything and have fun. We only live once so why waste it over stress? It hasn't been proven if there's really such thing as a second life but even if there is, that you in this lifetime will not be the same you again in the next lifetime. So I leave you this question, "If you were Adam, what would you do?" 


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